Overcoming Addiction

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Overcoming Addiction

Sharpen Your Axe

I feel very rejuvenated. I have been working for 5 weeks. I did not do a lot of my varsity work during these period. Something real magical happened. I learnt a good number of things including:
how I really am
How I handle people problems
How strangers really see me
How I react with fear to things I do not understand
How I automatically turn into a victim the moment I look away from my dreams
How not doing what I want can drive me mad
How much I love change
How adaptable I am
And my personal meaning of the word relax
Also how to give in to get what I want
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I will be adding some more as I allow them to mind. Above all these I feel so empowered I think I will definitely reach my goals. I can clearly see the goodies I will get at the end of every choice I will make.

The value of a setback

At times things go so well one can feel one's head among the clouds. It is unimaginable how catastrophic a failure can be from a place so high. And when it really happens the pain is excruciating. Depending on one's level of self-development one either bends or break, the fear of losing the respect of your contemporaries, the fear of  failing again and the inevitable disappointment to those you love can be close to unbearable. In one way or another if one hangs on and walks through it all, the seemingly unbearable becomes bearable. When you reach the other end you will be refined and humbler than you were before.

Holiday

I am on varsity holiday! I have taken a job as a receptionist in my residence, oh sometimes it gets to be quite a drag but hey  I am expanding my horizon. I  work for 8 hours a day, first paying job. I fall many times, like wake up late and fall asleep when I am on duty. This means I am really moving out of my comfort zone? There are some good things I noticed about myself  too, I am persistent , I work hard plus the guests seem to be having an easy time with me  plus I won't  forget to mention that I have got no warning so far!

What is happening in your world?

Better to be busy than bored!

A friend is a treasure,

It is very painful when we lose the people we are closest to. When they enter our lives we sometimes wonder why and wish to conceal some parts of ourselves, we may often succeed in hiding our suspicion. When they walk on us, the same thing happens, we wonder why.
When people come into my life I embrace them, behold though, I am in no way perfect. I am in no way perfect and I am assured that I do the best I could do under my circumstances. I lost two of my friends that I deeply loved. I think these reasons might hold true here:

• At times I meddle too much into others' businesses.
• I am not assertive enough, I hold onto resentment and become bitter.
• Fear to lose them sufficed.
• I thought they wanted more of me than I did of them.
• I can be a bum and super selfish.

I do work on  my self development but at times the older me shows up. I cannot live on apologizing for my being, I know that  getting better is better. I do take responsibility for my behavior and I wish I could  have been...

One door has been closed, I am not sure what is gonna happen next but I know another one will open. This is an end to one chapter of my life. It feels very bitter. I wanna make it through so I shall hold on until I reach an end of another one.

To the new chapter*****....

Hella

Confession of a pity- party- a- holic!

So many things have happened when I was away, actually I was extremely busy doing that, fixing this and ruining...I did a lot of things. I had so much work from varsity I feel a bit relieved today.
Sometimes I feel like I am acting out someone I am not. I wonder if this happens to anyone else. I do things I am proud of, I also do things I regret at times. I am tired of wondering why.
Sometimes I think I should be extra nice to some people because they have lost their job, boyfriend or they broke that vase they bought on Holiday in China. But think about it, who gets to be extra nice to  me when  I have just lost my touch of grace, no one! I am not trying to say let's be ungrateful. But most of these people brought it on themselves, so they should deal with it!
I tell myself "Rosa, nobody is going to throw a party for you', and then get myself together. But when it is someone else I get them cake and ice cream,and 'throw them a pity party' , nursing their emotions, but  it never feels right! never!I learnt what causes this circle of me doing things for others, when they do not say thank you it hurts,when they pursue their own line I wonder "I helped you through that why don't  I get some credit?"-I am helping these people because I want them to say I am nice,kind and all embracing kind of goddess. I am actually trying to get their approval. This is exactly why when I don't get a pat on my shoulder it hurts. When some friends turn down my invitation for something more pressing I usually find myself saying (to myself) "you know I had to forgo 1,2 and 3 to be at her party last week! ungrateful woman!"I actually love pity parties I wonder why it had to go through all of these before I could accept it and do something about it. I doubt that I am the only person who has some kind of self- sacrificing disorder. I don't think it is gonna be easy for me to break away but I gotta be free.


I take this mask off today and declare "I QUIT". I shall let my intellect be the adult of my  life, guide me and lead me, show me how to deal with my emotions. Emotions come and go, like waves, one will always follow another . I have learnt mindfulness and meditation some time back and now I summon them to my service.

Said so much I gotta stop or get an editor to go over it again....

sweet  sweet