A friend is a treasure,

It is very painful when we lose the people we are closest to. When they enter our lives we sometimes wonder why and wish to conceal some parts of ourselves, we may often succeed in hiding our suspicion. When they walk on us, the same thing happens, we wonder why.
When people come into my life I embrace them, behold though, I am in no way perfect. I am in no way perfect and I am assured that I do the best I could do under my circumstances. I lost two of my friends that I deeply loved. I think these reasons might hold true here:

• At times I meddle too much into others' businesses.
• I am not assertive enough, I hold onto resentment and become bitter.
• Fear to lose them sufficed.
• I thought they wanted more of me than I did of them.
• I can be a bum and super selfish.

I do work on  my self development but at times the older me shows up. I cannot live on apologizing for my being, I know that  getting better is better. I do take responsibility for my behavior and I wish I could  have been...

One door has been closed, I am not sure what is gonna happen next but I know another one will open. This is an end to one chapter of my life. It feels very bitter. I wanna make it through so I shall hold on until I reach an end of another one.

To the new chapter*****....