The value of a setback

At times things go so well one can feel one's head among the clouds. It is unimaginable how catastrophic a failure can be from a place so high. And when it really happens the pain is excruciating. Depending on one's level of self-development one either bends or break, the fear of losing the respect of your contemporaries, the fear of  failing again and the inevitable disappointment to those you love can be close to unbearable. In one way or another if one hangs on and walks through it all, the seemingly unbearable becomes bearable. When you reach the other end you will be refined and humbler than you were before.

Holiday

I am on varsity holiday! I have taken a job as a receptionist in my residence, oh sometimes it gets to be quite a drag but hey  I am expanding my horizon. I  work for 8 hours a day, first paying job. I fall many times, like wake up late and fall asleep when I am on duty. This means I am really moving out of my comfort zone? There are some good things I noticed about myself  too, I am persistent , I work hard plus the guests seem to be having an easy time with me  plus I won't  forget to mention that I have got no warning so far!

What is happening in your world?

Better to be busy than bored!

A friend is a treasure,

It is very painful when we lose the people we are closest to. When they enter our lives we sometimes wonder why and wish to conceal some parts of ourselves, we may often succeed in hiding our suspicion. When they walk on us, the same thing happens, we wonder why.
When people come into my life I embrace them, behold though, I am in no way perfect. I am in no way perfect and I am assured that I do the best I could do under my circumstances. I lost two of my friends that I deeply loved. I think these reasons might hold true here:

• At times I meddle too much into others' businesses.
• I am not assertive enough, I hold onto resentment and become bitter.
• Fear to lose them sufficed.
• I thought they wanted more of me than I did of them.
• I can be a bum and super selfish.

I do work on  my self development but at times the older me shows up. I cannot live on apologizing for my being, I know that  getting better is better. I do take responsibility for my behavior and I wish I could  have been...

One door has been closed, I am not sure what is gonna happen next but I know another one will open. This is an end to one chapter of my life. It feels very bitter. I wanna make it through so I shall hold on until I reach an end of another one.

To the new chapter*****....